i dont understand myself

ok...so tonight at work, i was working in the kitchen and someone came in and told me that a guy at the bar was starting a little trouble. so, i went out to check things out and i found that one guy was up in this other guys grill. so, i stepped in and got between them. nothing happened but something inside me wanted it to. i was telling them that "this was not going to happen", but deep down inside i was thinking, lets go. i know this is dumb and dangerous and i know that something like this is not a game but still, i wanted to go. now, what is it about men that makes us this way. the smart thing is to stay safe and healthy, but its almost like thats not important. i dont know what makes men want to be dumb and violent and dangerous, but its there. is it the sport, the challenge, our competitive nature, or stupidity. i dont know what it is, but i know i like it. i gotta say, i dont think i want to change. now, im not saying im looking for a fight by no means, but i know that something in me is ready. weird...isnt it?